Well, what can I say. It is Thanksgiving again. I think back to where I was a year ago and things have not turned out the way I would have wanted to. Obviously, my lifie took a pretty dramatic change. This past year I have most likely hardest times of my life. I have had to rethink my life. I have experienced the pleasure of a pure smile. I have learned that you can never take anything you have for granted. Life can throw many challenges at you in your life. I was thrown a unfortunate curve ball. I have made some mistakes after my injury. I have made some good decision since my injury.
Many people have refered to me as an inspiration. Many people have said that I have handled this injury better than they ever could. I appreciate those comments. However, I have been angry about what happened. I have been bitter about the huge change in my life. I have always considered my self as a strong person. This injury has brought out some personality traits that I didn’t know were there. I am not sure anymore that I was as strong as I thought. I am not confortable with my injury. I feel claustrophobic in my chair. I just want to stand up and go on a hike. I just want to throw my backpack on a get into nature. I want to go into garage and putter. That is why I am doing what I am doing here in Texas. I want the pleasure of backpacking 7 miles into the wilderness and enjoy the last sunset of the year. I did that once and I want to do that again. It was one of the most pure feeling I have ever had.
I am missing my family and friends. All of you have been so supportive of my over the past year. I am working hard not only for myself, but for those who have supported me over the past year. I want show all of you that your support will do some actually good for me. I want to this blog to become what it is titled- “recoveryjoel”. I want to fully recover. Your support will allow me to recover.
I hope I have made some sense. I miss all of you. I know this time next year I will well on my way to recovery. I will be home and with family. I will closing in on my goal to enjoy the pleasure of a hke. I will be a more complete person. I am just working hard for a better year next year. Next Thanksgiving I will have something to be thankfull for. Today, I am thankfull for all your support. So, thank you.
Have a great thanksgiving. With all my love….Joel