Saying goodbye to something you never wanted to say goodbye is tough. How do you say goodbye when you never wanted too. I had a lot of good things in my life during my time in Phoenix, but I am not there anymore. I have moved to Texas. I am working on getting my legs and life back in order. However, all those great things in my past is in my past. How do start looking forward and stop looking back. It was explained to me that there is some bitterness in me, because of what was, not was is. It is true. I have had a deep rooted chip on my shoulder. It was hard, but good to hear it. I really needed to hear that. So, I have worked hard over the past week to let the past go. I have been doing well, but I have struggled too.
My trip to Austin was a huge event to start looking forward. Once, I am done here, regardless of the outcome, I will have to begin another phase of my life. I began to think about where I want to end up in a year or two. I really like the feel of Austin. Of course, I have been thinking about moving to Little Rock, AR. You may ask why Little Rock. Well, I did a road trip through there three years ago and I really like the vibe. It had a similar vibe to Portland, OR. I really don’t know where the next two years will look like when I look back. Lastly, it it a much better feeling to look forward than looking back.
I did go to therapy today. I worked hard and did well. I hope when I go to my niece’s birthday party in Portland things will be even better.
Better go. I am going to the pool.