I have found that I spent a lot of time, wasted at that, searching for anwsers I can’t answer nor anyone else can answer. I want to know to know the what if’s, the if only’s. I wish I wouldn’t, but I do. For some reason if I knew the answers it will make this all better. The hard reallity is; it won’t. It just may make things more difficultt. It has been hard realizing that what could have been is not what is. I have to deal with what is right in front of me. I wish I hadn’t had to deal with what I am dealing with, but I have too. I don’t have a choice. On second thought. I do have a choice. I guess that is why I am going to Texas.
Tonight a friend are going to a local establishment to hangout before I leave. It will be good to be out and live life. Enjoy the friends I have.
I will also admit I can’t wait to move to Texas. I feel like a small child waiting for Christmas. It can’t come fast enough. I guess I just have to work hard to get done what I need to and focus on my future…walking.
Have a good weekend.