I obviously haven’t witten as much as I have in the past. I seem to be asking myself those questions that I would have asked even if I had not had a spinal cord injury. Where do I want to be in two, five, and ten years? What do I want to do on my weekends? What do I want to do with my career? How do I make my dreams come true? what are my dreams? How can I make my life better? There are ever present on my mind. Just now the conditions have changed. I admit that they would have seemed eaiser without the injury. But in the same respect they seem easier. I am now behind the eight ball and I have nothing to lose. I guess what is the worst that can happen? Before my accident other than the obvoius this injury would have been it. To lose the ability to do what I love most I couldn’t have imagined.
Something that I thought today I realized I have not witten about. The day before I got hurt I was on a short hike in Sedona, AZ. I noticed a guy in a what I would know now a mountian bike wheel chair. I remember thinking…good for him. To have his disablity and get out to where to a place and enjoy what Sedona has to offer. In my mind one of the most beatiful places in the world, but that is just me. I wouldn’t have thought that, that could be me, perhaps I should have. I thought that guy is probably an inspiration. My point is that is it was good for him to continue with life, but I couldn’t at the time have ever understood how hard it would to be that guy. And for me, many days it is hard to be that guy. But I guess like I have said a hundred times, I don’t have a choice. I woke up one night and was told that I would probably never walk again. I just have to deal with it and find a way to be that guy on that rock that day. Even as I write this I think all of us have the opportunity to be like that guy. We all have the ability to make out lives happier, better, fuller. We just have to do it. It is even difficult for able bodied people to make their lives what they want it to be. Life I guess is work everybody, I guess I always knew that. I just didn’t realize everbody has challenges in life. And like that guy on that rock that day and like everyone else our challenges are unique to each person.
On the work front. I am getting back to it. I still struggle to get up and get going as early as I would like. But, I am slowly getting up a little earlier everyday. I will get there at some point.
Lastly, I would like to write more as it is comforting to do it. But, my life become a little less interesting with every passing day.