Life just seems to be moving along something like the way a leaf drifts down a river. It just seems to keep moving and there is not stopping the flow. As life keeps moving I sometimes just can’t believe what has happenend over the past months. As life drifts on it makes me realize that all this is real. Not just a short term situation. I wake up some mornings, or get back to my apartment, or getting back into my car and I just can’t believe this has really happened. I really have to make do with this change in life. When I have this realization it has the tendency to make all this more difficult and the river just keeps on drifting. I don’t have this great perspective on this situation and I wish I did that could help me make this better. All I can say is that life flows one way and it is full of eddy currents, waterfalls, and rapids, so watch ahead ouf you so you don’t get caught in a line a rapids.
On another note I have not yet had the chance to ride the bike because I couldn’t put it together myself and I brought it to a bike shop. the shop has not finished it. As soon as I get on it I wil have pictures.
I was supposed to go to a spinal cord injury retreat this weekend, but due to a wildfire it was cancelled. I was really bummed. The good new is that I get to spend more time with Erika. She is leaving very soon and I want to spend as much time as I can with her. It is going to be hard to not have her near. I have depended so much on her company. She has been to one of very few things in my life that as remained. She has been this constant that has brought a great deal of happiness to my life. Without her my foundation is weakend some. I guess I have to learn to live alone again. Hopefully when she gets back I will be strong and fully independant again. The hardest part is just being apart again. We have been apart a lot over the past year and I am getting tired of it. I am sure I will be counting the days till she get back.
Work has been good. I really can’t do more than about 4 or 5 hours right now. The good news is that I have time to get stronger.
I guess that is it for today. Have a great day.
THIS IS A PICTURE OF ERIKA HELPING ME BUILD THE NEW BIKE. NOT EASY