I spent sometime at Erika’s last night. I got suckered into American Idol. I am not going to lie. I am not a fan. But as I was sitting there getting tired of Simon I thought of getting up and going to bed. And that when it hit me. The day I lost my passions in life I lost my home. The place I once called home is no longer mine. the place with so many memories is no longer mine. It has hope, love, and dreams. I live in a place that is stale, drab and lifeless. I live in a place that has no feeling or memories in it. Erika’s place was my home. Unfortunately, due to new changes in my life I couldn’t return to my home. And on my way back to the place I sleep my heart broke. Realizing I lost my home was one of the most difficult realizations I have had to face.
Home is the place that we come together and share in each other’s lives. Home is sharing in each other’s triumphs and downfalls. Home is the place full of memories of our past. Home is where we sit around together late at night talking politics and better times. Home has nothing to do with a building with four walls and a roof. But, the holes in the those walls make it home. I dream someday of living in a place I call home.
Today was a busy day. I was on the phone trying to get a new bike. I was on the phone with insurance. I was on the phone getting a plane reservation to Boston. So, when I finished what I needed to get done today I went and had myself a beer on Mill Ave. The sun was setting on a day I won. Tomorrow the sun will come back up and I will have to fight the good fight again.
So, for those that don’t know I get a lot of pain from legs. I really can’t describe it but it can really hurt from time to time. It drives me nuts sometimes. So, I have decided to take matters into my own hands. When the sun goes down I am going to somke pot to help dull the pain from legs. I have to do something. It just hurts to much sometimes. Even the slightest break from the pain will be nice. Medical Weed….right on.
Have a great Thursday. The sun has come up today…so make it a good one.