Assistance is a concept that I seldom though of. Over the 30 years of my life, I learned to pretty much do everything on my own. One time, I moved all my possessions from California to Arizona all on my own and with no help. I was able to move entire couches out of the house with no help. I could build a 2 X 12 bookshelf with no problem. I could reach things that were too high for everyone else.
Obviously everything has changed and I no longer able to do things that I could do before. I sometimes find it difficult to get the help I need. It has been a difficult transition for me. I probably have been unfair to a few people close to me because of my inability to adjust. I wish it weren’t like that, but I am trying overcoming this challenge. The reality in my life is that I won’t have to ask for help for a lot of little things in my life. I just hope I can get to a point that it doesn’t bother my like it does today. To those I have not said thanks for your help: Thank you, it is appreciated.
Today I had the opportunity to go scuba diving in a pool near Craig, and it was a blast. In the pool, I was free from my chair, which was an absolute great feeling. I have always enjoyed the water. Perhaps scuba diving will be something I will pick up once I go home. So much has changed and scuba diving maybe can be something that will be easier now. I will have some pictures from scuba tomorrow.
Today is Valentine’s Day. I was unable to spend it again with Erika. We spent another Valentine’s Day away from each other. I wish it weren’t like this, but I could wish all I want but that won’t make it so. So, this is for Erika. I love you babe. Will you be my Valentine?
I have to admit that I am taking my rehab a little more seriously now that the end is in sight. I really want to get as much training before I leave here. Learning how to live again requires so many more skills. Nothing is easy anymore. Everything I do takes planning, and planning is not my best attribute. I guess that’s one more skill to learn.
Well I better go, “Lost” is about ready to come on and I can’t miss that. Before I go I want to say thanks a friend from Wyoming sent me a great coffee mug and some cookies. The cookies were great and the mug will certainly get used.
By the way, I am really getting tired of this snow here in Colorado. I am really ready to get back to Arizona and the nice weather.