Confidence feels like you can soar through the clouds. I would argue it’s the best feeling in the world. Having the feeling that no one can stop you is fantastic. The last couple of days, I have had this feeling. I really felt like I was hitting my stride. I was making aggressive moves in wheelchair class that I had not been doing before. I really enjoyed that feeling. I had not felt in a while, and I really missed that feeling.
But like most things, what goes up must come down. It was feeling great today until I had to disassemble my wheelchair and reassemble it. I really struggled with it, and I lost a lot of my confidence. I really needed a lot of help while I was messing with my chair. The good news is that when I got the chair done and I got back in it. I have come to realize that confidence is one side of a teeter-totter. It goes up and down pretty quickly, and it is quite a balancing act. With all that I am learning to do again there are so many opportunities for my confidence to drop. I guess that has my confidence drops less the closer I am to going home. And I can’t wait to go home to Erika.
Tomorrow I will probably be able to take my brace off and I am chomping at the bit to have it off. Like I’ve said many times before, it is one step closer to my independence.
Over the last week, I have gained a shadow. This young boy whose father is here has seemed to become attached to me. I believe my shadow was started by Erika. She really befriended him and now he come to my room and hangs out and watches TV. For some weird reason, it is nice having him hanging around. There is something nice about the simplicity of a young person. I seem to have a lot of hope of my own life with him hanging around.
This weekend Erika and I are planning to see a movie at the movie theater. She wants see Blood Diamond, and I am more than happy to go with her. Getting out of here will be nice.
Before I end this I want to give a couple shouts outs; Jenny Hansen, my cousin’s cousin, sent me a couple of games and a Wisconsin hat. Thanks, I fortunately had to use it the day I got it. I also got a box of really nice brownies from a buddy’s mom. Thanks Mrs. Scanlon. The brownies are really good.
A buddy of my brother’s stopped by tonight. We were talking about things when the subject of support came up. After the conversation, I realized that I have so much support it really is tremendous. So…I really want to say thank you to everyone out for all your support. Every little bit really helps a lot.
Well I am off to a “shower” and bed. Have a good hump day everyone. I am sure I will.