Independence is something that I have not had a lot of lately. I need help to get out of bed. I need help to get into bed. I need help to shower. However, in the last couple of days, I have realized that I am really ready for my independence. I am ready to get myself to bed. I am ready to take showers on my own. I am ready to feel whole again. For so many years before this, I lived with quite a bit of independence and I enjoyed it. My lack of independence is really starting to get to me. The good news is the light at the end of the tunnel is so near and I can almost taste it. The freedom of independence is something I will never take for granted ever again.
Today I managed to get out of bed early to go to a wheelchair basketball tournament. I can’t say I found myself thinking that I want to do that. I did learn a little bit about the sport while I was there. From what I gathered it is a pretty big deal. As I found out, many players on their respective team won’t actually live in the city they play for. The players will get flown to in to town for practice. Apparently, the NBA teams spend quite a bit of money on these teams. Today’s field trip was a nice way to get out of Craig.
The nice part of my trip this morning was I met an individual that spent time here at Craig. He gave me some great advice on managing my own care. It was nice to commensurate with someone that had been where I am today. He also gave me some great advice on looking for some grants when I get out of here. Our conversation really lifted my spirits.
Speaking of getting out. I did what I needed with PT and the rest of the group to get a “hall pass” to get out. For anyone wanting to got to a Colorado Crush game, and can drive, let me know.
I spoke to Erika today and she is coming back for the weekend — this weekend. She is coming in for the birthday. Yep… I am turning 30. I never figured I would turn 30 like this, but as long as I have Erika I am happy. I can barely wait to have her here. She makes this place bright and full of hope. I am counting the days.