Perspective; this word has a lot more meaning in the last couple of weeks. There is not a person here who isn’t looking at someone else and thinking; if only I could do that. If only I had my hands. If only I had my torso muscles. If only I had my legs. If only I had could walk. I know I roll around this hospital and people that can’t even use their arms and hands look at me and think I wish I could do that. I will admit I roll around this place and see a couple of people that have their legs and I think; I wish I could do that. I have realized in the last couple of days that we so often look at we don’t have and only see what we don’t. The interesting thing to me is that I know that I will always look at someone here who is walking and think: I wish I could do that. No way around it. I suppose I need to remind myself everyday of what I do have.
This weekend was awesome. Erika came into town this weekend. It was so nice to have here. I am positive that I had the biggest and widest smile on my face all day. One thing that was really nice was that we able to fit into my really small bed and take a nap together. Having the contact of her body against mine was beyond words. I will say it was the most free I have felt in a long time. We spent the rest of the time just hanging around watching football, playing cards, and going down in the basement with a chair. Having her here just lifted my spirits so much. She is here for a couple more days and I am so happy. Thanks for coming Erika.
I also want to give my ma thanks. It was the nicest thing she did for Erika and I. She made us a salmon dinner that Erika brought from Arizona, and set up a candle light dinner for us in my room. It was a small piece of normalcy in a place that is anything but. So once again, thanks. We really enjoyed it.
Other than that tomorrow is back to the grind of getting better. Speaking of me getting better; I wanted to let everyone know that my stomach muscles came back yesterday. I now have the ability to flex my stomach muscles. This is a huge improvement and I am hoping this is the start of the return of my body.
Have a great Monday everyone.